Mark 4:37–41 (ESV)

"And a great windstorm arose, and the waves were breaking into the boat, so that the boat was already filling. 38 But he was in the stern, asleep on the cushion. And they woke him and said to him, “Teacher, do you not care that we are perishing?” 39 And he awoke and rebuked the wind and said to the sea, “Peace! Be still!” And the wind ceased, and there was a great calm. 40 He said to them, “Why are you so afraid? Have you still no faith?” 41 And they were filled with great fear and said to one another, “Who then is this, that even the wind and the sea obey him?”" 

“Teacher, do you not care that we are perishing?” 

Today I woke up feeling waves of fear about future ministry issues, personal conflict, and an anger I can’t figure out, that I seemed to have woken up with yesterday. If I’m honest I’m wondering if God really cares about how I feel right now. 

Looking at the death of Jesus on the cross for our sin we see how much he cares that we are “perishing”. If Jesus is willing to go that far, if the Father is willing to give His son so we would not perish, should we still wonder if God cares? 

The waves of suffering crashing into the boat of our lives can point us to the heart reviving truth that Jesus was willing to drown under the wrath of God for our rescue, to deliver us from ALL of our deepest fears. He cares. If we wonder if he cares about us perishing, we must look to the cross. It’s so hard to argue with a crucified Jesus about whether he loves us or not, or if he can be trusted as good. 

“Who or what can separate me from your love? Why should I be “so afraid”? I could lose all, but I can’t lose you. I could lose my manufactured reputation and only be left with the truth that I need you desperately. Maybe that’s exactly what I need. Calm the waves of fear in my heart to be secure in you, to be sure that you have my good in constant motion.”